Each Type in Human Design is also connected to what is referred to as an “Authority”. Authority is the way you are uniquely designed to make decisions. There are a total of 7 different authorities in Human Design. Today I want to focus on my authority, which is referred to as Emotional Authority. As the name implies this way of making decisions involves emotions. More specifically, I have what is referred to as an emotional wave and there are 4 different types of waves. In my case I have 2 of the 4 waves. Have I lost you yet? Approximately, 47% of the population has emotional authority. This is an important fact which relates to my story. Another fact about me that is important to know, is that I have always had this underlying feeling that I didn’t fit in here and by here, I mean this planet.
I have been working with individuals one on one for 16 years. The phrase I hear the most is, I’m a people pleaser. I would describe people pleasing as the perceived need, desire or compulsion to take care of the needs of others instead of yourself. This can show up in passive ways that are invisible to others. Or it can show up in more overt ways, like overly focusing on the needs of others. The origin of this behaviour, often goes back to adapting to family dynamics to get our individual needs met.
In Human Design there is an invitation to discover how we are unconsciously designed to operate in this lifetime. We are designed to be an individual and unique expression. There are approximately 2 billion different ways that the body graph / chart can be expressed in Human Design. Which reinforces just how unique we actually are. At the same time we are here to have the experience of being human and everything that goes along with that. We are here to experience the pain and suffering of being human, along with the joy and wonder and everything in between. The experience of being human brings us conditioning.
One of the many areas of Human Design that have captivated my interest is the energy centers. I think the main reason for this is the fact that there is so much valuable information embedded in them. Before I get into the Open Solar Plexus specifically, I will share some important info about the centers. Each center on the chart has a specific focus and consciousness. I like to think of each center as a disk drive that contains a wealth of information about our design. Each center also relates to different parts of our biology.
I want to try and convey why I am inspired by Human Design and give you a deeper understanding of why it can be so powerful. As I begin to write this, I can feel this ball of energy that is very clear (to me) and also hard to describe. So this is me articulating what I am feeling. I have been working with others formally since 2006 as a life coach. I also feel like I started coaching long before that in my career. Since then, I have also worked in various roles and jobs. In recent years I have been working in the field of addiction. I have always had an intrinsic desire to help people realize who they really are and to gain an understanding of what that means.
What is energy type?
When teaching someone about their Human Design chart, one of the first areas we discuss is Energy Type. So let’s start by clarifying what the word energy can mean in relation to your design and type. Energy refers to your physical, mental, and emotional energy levels. It also refers to your aura and energetic field and how this energy is exchanged with the world/universe. Energy also refers to how those around you experience you / feel you. Perhaps you can best relate to this with the example of having a reaction to someone who enters a room and feel drawn to them or possibly feeling repelled by their energy and not wanting to engage.
The struggle to speak our truth and share our voice in relationships is very real. When I reflect back on my early years in relationship I simply felt I could not say anything. The main reason would be that for much of my younger years I witnessed and felt just how deeply words can hurt someone. This experience created a deep fear around speaking my truth and hurting someone with my words. As we often do with our shadows, I went to the extreme opposite and suppressed my voice. When I did share my voice, I would usually share with anger just like I had witnessed.
Conscious communication is about awakening awareness of our impact on others and our relationships. The key is to become aware of ourselves and have a slow solid look in the mirror. The list below is intended to show the variety of ways that we can deepen our connection with ourselves and allow our unique voice to surface. When we truly know ourselves and love ourselves the voice begins to emerge quite naturally.
I have long been fascinated by my relationship with anger and our cultural beliefs surrounding the expression of anger. What follows is a story about my relationship and experience with anger on my journey of personal growth and a recent unexpected experience of releasing some anger. In January 2021, I had an intuitive/channeled reading and was told by the channeler that I would at some point have an experience where I would have a release of anger and I would then be excited to do more anger release work. This came up as work I would need to do in relation to a question I had about my long-time struggle with weight. When I get awareness about something like this, I usually jump into action fairly quickly. So when I moved to Vernon in February I had an expectation/hope that I would be able to do this work at the local Men’s circle. I believe that I even vocalized this intention at the first circle I attended. As a side note, when living in Squamish I facilitated the Men’s group there for 7 years and struggled to find an opportunity to do meaningful anger work. Partially due to the inability to find a suitable location to do that type of work and what I believe is an unconscious resistance to doing so.
Lost at 40 (ish) happened for me, a few weeks before my 41st birthday. As a side note this can happen at 20 (ish) 30 (ish) etc. I had been on the path of personal growth and awareness for many years. At the time, I was working for Starbucks as a manager, I walked into the store like I had done so many times before, but this time was different. I experienced an intense feeling of anxiety in my heart and a deep knowing that I was done.... I could no longer continue on the path of working there; in an environment that I now know and understand, was completely overwhelming for my nervous system. I imagine that for others the only choice would have been to keep going, regardless of what my body was screaming. Luckily for me, in previous years I had been able to experience the contrast of following my heart vs. following a career.